Abortion Fallout
Author: Tortured Mary
There are NO excuses for my poor choices all in the name of seeking love. I am doomed to the bowels of hell for my actions and rightly so. I don’t know how to impact young girls today to prevent them from making my same mistakes.
My first abortion resulting when it wasn’t even legal in the state of NY, however I was provided airfare, and a free abortion in a medical setting in NYC. Muncie Medical Center- we were herded in and herded out. I was so young, fresh off the farm. At the airport a man saying he was a doctor molested me, touching my breasts out in the open. You see being one of 13 children NEVER ever going to the doctor, we were trained to THINK DOCTORS WERE GODS. I have been scared for life, not only the harsh words from the “father” saying “oh I have another dead one” but also this airport experience.
I only wish that was the one and only abortion experience BUT IT WAS NOT. I subsequently had two (2) more- I live daily with these innocent babies spirits haunting me and have NEVER had a satisfactory “relationship” with a man all the days of my life.
Even dabbling in an “alternative” lifestyle……….. I am lost and only upon my death will I be found………..Amen
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Dec 10, 2013 @ 12:07:56
Poor Mary. There is good news for you sister! Through Jesus you are forgiven! Yes, forgiven! Then you will be able to forgive yourself, and even more wonderful news. You will be reunited with your babies in Heaven! You don’t have to suffer any longer, God can still work miracles in your life. You can be happy Mary! I will be praying for you friend!
Jun 22, 2014 @ 19:19:16
Dear Mary,
You are not doomed. Yes, you will always remember your babies. But, God forgives and he will heal your mind, heart and soul if you let him. Very much like your situation, I never had any good and descent men in my life. I have been abstinent for seven years now from the last man who will ever use and abuse me. Don’t ever feel like you are alone and don’t give up on yourself. Stay strong and give your mind, heart, soul and spirit to God through Lord, Jesus Christ and you will be healed from your pain as time goes on.