Blurred Vision
Author: Forgotten Father Baby Name: Angel Birth Date: 08/2013 Abortion Date: 01/2013
I have noticed many of these posts are from mothers commemorating their lost babies. I figured a “mans opinion” couldn’t hurt. Let me begin by saying that like many of you, the pregnancy I created was not planned. As of the abortion, 01/2013, I was and am 21 years old. I did not and do not my consider myself ready to be a father. That does not mean I wasn’t ready for the major change in my life that comes with expecting a child because I have been and always will be a very strong minded person and I know I could have done it. Anyway, I had to find out from someone other than my child’s mother that she was pregnant. When I confronted her about it, she was honest and told me she was. Let me just add that me and the child’s mother had just finished a 2 year relationship and were not together when we conceived. I feel this complicated things and eventually led to the abortion. She had an at home abortion that I helped her through. I saw all the blood, chunks, tissue matter and pieces coming out of her…that was my blood coming out of her too..my blood that I SHOULD have protected and nurtured for its entire life. Unfortunately, the shock and awe of the situation blurred my mental clarity. When babies mom asked what I wanted to do…I told her whatever she chose I would support her. Saying that was the biggest mistake of my life because it lead to the death of my first baby that I will never be able to hold, kiss, and raise as my own. I have somewhat started to come to terms with what happened. I still regret it everyday of my life, every waking moment. I see babies everywhere..mommys an daddies with their little ones. I will never have that and it eats at my soul like a damn termite. I can’t stop it I can’t change it. What’s done is done and that’s the point if this post. If you are considering having an abortion…DO NOT do it. You will hate yourself, you will look in the mirror an see a zombie. It is not worth it i promise you. Please I beg you, person I don’t know, do not have the abortion it will leave scars on your soul. I love you my baby.. I never met you but I will one day..until then my child..daddy loves you
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Apr 27, 2014 @ 13:57:06
Thank you for so courageously sharing your story. I cannot imagine the pain that you have suffered because of your loss of fatherhood. I hope and pray that God will continually give you peace and healing. Know that in sharing your story, you are helping other men and women see how precious and wonderful life is and how horrible abortion is for ALL who are involved. God bless you ~
Jun 24, 2014 @ 06:21:25
Huggs. Thanks for sharing your story, that was very courageous of you. Take time to heal and forgive yourself. Grieve, allow yourself to go through that process. Accept Jesus as your Saviour and all will be forgiven. Jesus loves you remember that.
Mar 20, 2015 @ 17:17:16
You are not forgotten, Your baby is in heaven and will know you when you see him or her. You are not forgotten because God created you and he never forgets you or where you are. You are a kind compassionate man who made a dreadful mistake. God forgives all sin when we ask. He paid for all sin on the cross and you can accept His forgiveness as you ask for it and wait before Him. He can free you to live a different , God honoring lifestyle. Be a man of integrity and protect those women you come in contact with from now on. God loves you just as you are.