Diaspora
Author: Geri Baby Name: Diaspora Birth Date: October 1977 Abortion Date: april 1977
16 weeks along in 1977 the Dr reluctantly gave me (19 and unmarried) a number for Bill Baird clinic. Deeply conflicted I searched the library for photos of gestation so I could know what I was doing but I found none and was too ashamed to ask.
I dreamt of you the night before our appointment. You were smiling up at me. Your hair was unkempt and your name was Diaspora. In the morning I ran to look up the unfamiliar word in the dictionary. “Dispersion (of the jews)”. So strange.
They injected needles filled with saline solution and you jumped. It hurt so bad. The dr. seemed upset. In pain, I cried. I realized you didn’t want to die. Yet I had you killed.
But I want you to know the terrible guilt I carried brought me to Christ. 10 years later after marrying and giving birth to your brother I fell to my knees at the cross and all I could think of was you. God forgave me and came into my heart that day. I know I will see you one day. I’m so sorry that I foolishly took your life because being pregnant was inconvenient for me. You have met your two brothers by now. At 22 and 16 they drown together in 2009. I’m so happy you are all together. I will see you soon.
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Apr 09, 2015 @ 22:26:33
Such a sad story. Jesus’ prayer from the cross while He was being crucified is suitable for all of us who have submitted to abortion: “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do,” and if you have asked Him, He has forgiven you. So has your child, Diaspora. You have three times suffered the earthly loss of a child.
Thank God, His grace and mercy shines through all kinds of circumstances. My prayer for you is Numbers 6:24-26. You probably already know it if you are a Christian, but it’s always comforting to read it again. God bless you.