IM SORRY
Author: Sofia
I was 15 1/2 when I found out I was pregnant. .
I put something in your sprite he said to me..
I laughed and said stop lying…
Thats all I remember from that night…
A month later I was pregnant.
My mom cried how could I let that happen..
All I could think was how did it happen…
Abortion it is she said..
I had never heard of an abortion but it was not my choice…
I went to St. Francis Hospital in Lynwood Ca.
Said I had stomach pain..
I saw you my baby at 8 weeks gestation. ..
Never saw you again after that. Im sorry…
Abortion it was.. It was not my choice but I had no choice..
I walked in the clinic on Lakewood blvd…
Insurance card and proof of relationship they told my mother…
As I sat there and looked around I saw other girls there acting as if they were waiting on a check up.. They all had to be in their teens and about 4 months pregnant…
And I thought what is wrong with them why are they not feeling like I am..
I sat there terrified….
I had never heard of an abortion and didnt know how it was performed. ..
Sofia Pineda…
Come to the back …
Mom you going I said…
Sorry no one is allowed but the patient..
I was more terrified. …
Take all your clothes of and put this gown on she said..
I looked at all the instruments on the table.. sharp ones,round ones,long and short…
Lay down on the bed and place your heels on each side…
As I layed there with my legs spread apart I was thinking I don’t want to do this im scared ,whats going to happen??
On the count of three you will go to sleep …
One
Two
Three…
I wake up in so much pain and so dizzy and nauseous. ..
Is it your first abortion some lady next to me said..
Yes I said..
Don’t worry the first time is always scary…Its my tenth one.
I didn’t say anything to her after that..
2hrs later I was let go…
As I sat with my mom outside on a bench all I could do was cry..
Why did I have to do this.. WHY…
LONGEST RIDE HOME EVER AND ON A BUS….
My life was never the same after that….
And I never told anyone but now….
Please forgive me my sweet angel…
I will always love you….
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Jan 27, 2014 @ 00:19:07
I am so sorry you had to experience such pain and loss. Thank you for sharing this though because it will help so many people understand the emotions a woman goes through in this situation.
Jul 29, 2014 @ 08:56:06
I am so sorry. I wish you’d had the chance to know what was going to happen and have a say in it. I can’t imagine the pain you’ve been through. Know that you and your mother are loved and forgiven through Christ, and that there is always hope.
I’ll be praying for you and for your mother, and for the woman who was on her tenth abortion when you went in. I hope you are able to find a healing program near you, as they are so valuable to leading those hurt by abortion to peace and forgiveness.
Love,
Katie
Apr 14, 2017 @ 11:11:25
Thank you both for your kind words.