May you always be in my heart
Author: Lauren Birth Date: January 2015 Abortion Date: May 2014
May 31st, 2014 was the day of the abortion, I was 19 at the time living with my boyfriend in the summer time, it was the first time we lived together and the second day i moved in i found out i was pregnant. I vividly remember going into the clinic and those times still haunt me. Every day I struggle carrying on my everyday life because my mind is too occupied and grieving for the loss of my child. I was 6 weeks pregnant and the due date would have been on our anniversary, Jan. 26th. That day will be forever in my mind and heart. I still cry to this day thinking about what live could’ve been but it would have been selfish to bring you into the world without enough experience, money, things to provide you. I miss you everyday and i will remember this my entire life. I cry as i write this, not knowing how to express my love in words and wanting to be able to see you. It was for the best, see you in heaven.
XO, love always,
mommy
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Nov 12, 2014 @ 17:53:29
So beautiful. Your words sound alot like mine. I had my abortion in april. I still grieve and still sorry for what I did…you can honor your baby now though. I write my baby letters and I made a beautiful charm bracelet for her.
Nov 18, 2014 @ 09:15:53
Thank you so much for sharing your story!!! I want you to know you are not alone in your feelings.. There are so many of us out there that have felt and still feel the same way. I wanted to share with you that I have just recently became a leader to lead an abortion healing bible study class.. Its called Surrendering The Secret. Not sure where you are from but most Christian based pregnancy aid centers lead this study. Its a bible study to help you break free from the guilt and shame of your decision. I know it may seem like that is impossible.. But its not. I, too, have suffered through an abortion.. This class really does help. If you are interested in it. Email me! I can do Skype sessions, one on one or whatever. Please try to seek healing. God knew your decision with this baby before you did. God was not who led you to the abortion.. But he will use his goodness, forgiveness and grace to heal you and help you through. I know the grief you feel, the shame, the guilt, the anger, etc… Also know that there is a healing and a forgiveness and mercy for our decisions.. We all fall short of the glory.. But God sent his one and only son to die for ALL not some of our sins. I’m here for you and will be praying for you!!! You are worthy and deserving of his love and forgiveness