Missed Blessing In Disguise..

Author: Breana
Birth Date: September 11, 2014
Abortion Date: February 20, 2014

Although I wasn’t ready to bring you into such a cruel world..I wish I would’ve known how hurtful and how much I would hate myself after the fact.. Financially I wasn’t ready nor was your father..we were just getting on our feet but truth be told you’re never ready for a baby you just have to do your best and I felt as though my best wouldn’t have been good enough.. I don’t want my baby to hurt for the things I didn’t have ..I wanted you to not only be loved and cared for but know that no matter what mommy and daddy will always be here for you so how do I do that when I am no longer carrying you in my womb let alone can see how beautiful you would’ve been..I truly missed my blessing and there’s no way of me bringing you back..I beat myself up everyday I’ve asked for your forgiveness and even God’s but I would rather be holding you in my arms next month instead of feeling so bitter and selfish inside.. I will always and forever love you.. I missed a blessing so now I must suffer..