My babies in Heaven

Author: My First Name
Baby Name: Jennifer Faith/David Michael
Birth Date: December 2012/February 2013
Abortion Date: March 2012/August 2012

To my babies,

I am so sorry. I am sorry I couldn’t look past the selfishness, fear, and doubt that I felt in the moment I found out about you. There will never be a reason I can give that would justify you not being here with me and having a chance at life. The only thing I can be thankful for is the knowledge that you are held in the hands of God, the One who loved you more than I could ever have from day one. I want you to know that I pray for the day I will meet you in Heaven. I pray every day to be able to live in Christ’s forgiveness for making the choice to take you from this Earth before you had a day to live. You have a little brother named Alex. He is my miracle baby as I was told that I would never have after going through the traumatic abortion procedures. I sometimes think about the joy we would have had as a family and the joy we will experience when we all meet in Heaven. You have two other siblings lost in miscarriage with you in Heaven. I hope you have found them and are holding on to one another in love and comfort. Please know that if I could go back and change the choice I made 6 and 7 years ago, I would in a heartbeat. I would give my life for yours and give you a chance to experience life. Please know I love you now and forever.