My Mason or Shelby

Author: My First Name
Baby Name: Mason or Shelbly
Birth Date: Unkown
Abortion Date: 20th July 2012

My boy or girl, wow today you would have been 7, this isn’t your actual birth date though, we didn’t know it. We decided so quickly to take away your chance of life, and for that I can’t begin to tell you how much my heart is in pain everyday. Each day I wonder how you would have been, my boy a cheeky chap like his dad or my girl being daddy’s princess. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t regret the choice I made, the guilt is unbearable. And I just wish if I was given the circumstances again I would have had you.

Although we never knew what you were a boy or girl, I do think Of you as a boy, although I wouldn’t have minded either. If I have a child in the future they will know they had a half brother/sister. They will also remember as I do, longing for the day I get to see you again. In my dreams I see your face, me holding you close to my chest in my arms and you feeling safe in your dads arms, a way a child should have felt, instead I made the worse choice of my life, and have beaten myself up for it each day after. Me and your mother are no longer together, but when I do see you again we shall both love you like we always did. I cannot change whats happened. However please know I always did and have loved you. Being young and stupid and scared of consequences led us to losing you. Please find it in you to forgive me. So my boy or girl, my Mason or Shelby…7 today wow, time really does fly, I’ll write again when you’re 8, know your dad loves you and you’re always in my heart and thoughts. Love you.