As may 15 gets closer the numbness I originally felt to all feelings and the world around me is going away. The closer your due date gets the harder everything gets and the more the regret and heartbreak comes out. I never got it confirmed but I just knew you were a girl, the same(…)
July 25, 2014 . The worst day of my life , the day I chose to end your life . I’ve never felt so much pain & agony so empty . I love you so much & I would give anything to go back in time & keep you , to feel you grow in(…)
I lost my first grandchild on March 13, 2015. I didn’t find out until 3 days later when I was looking around in my sons bedroom for nail clippers and I came across the post op information from the women’s clinic and a confirmation phone call from my ex saying my son had called and(…)
Your father and I have spoken about you and our deep regret and sorrow over not having given you life. It was March 2, 1979 and we only spoke about you and cried together three years ago. You would be 36 yrs of age. I believe you are with Jesus and that you have forgiven(…)
To my baby…I only knew I was pregnant for 10 days, but in that time I came to love you. You were changing my body and made a mark on my heart. I’m so sorry that I let my fear take over. I think your dad regrets it too. You were such a big surprise(…)
I remember it so clearly. Your mom and I were so close, almost like sisters. She was in high school at the time, I don’t know if she ever thinks about you, but I have prayed for you. I truly hope that your mom and grandmother pray for you too. You precious child are now(…)
There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about her. I was 11 weeks pregnant when I had my abortion. At the time I was scared but I was more scared of upsetting my boyfriend at the time then even trying to process what I wanted. I didn’t think about what else(…)
I made the absolute worse decision EVER. I am not sure how to cope. The depression I feel is very real. At this point in my life I have no one to truly confide in. Seeing the ultrasound and my baby made everything so real and at that point I wanted to run out. I(…)
Thirty years ago this week, I made the life altering decision to abort my baby. I am so very sorry for what I did to you. I’ve never forgotten you, I will always love you, and I anticipate the day when I will see you in heaven.
Oh my sweet sweet Bentley… How I wish I could’ve just put my foot down and said no. I wish I could’ve rejected your fathers insistence on us doing this… It’s not his fault though baby. I was scared too, I know all the feelings he was feeling, but since I’m your mommy I felt(…)
Happy 1st birthday little one. Not a day goes by that i don’t regret and hate myself for what I done. I should have been stronger and stood up for what I wanted instead of doing what everyone else thought was best. I always wish I could go back and change that day. I know(…)
May 17th, 2011 I made a decision that I felt pressured into. I am sorry that I wasn’t strong enough to tell your father no and that I wanted you. Even if he was right that I couldn’t afford you. I think of you always. I planted a cherry blossom tree in my parents yard(…)
Son, Happy 1st birthday. I am sorry that I cannot be here with you. We miss you very much. Your mum and I are doing well. Please don’t worry too much about us. I hope you are happy in heaven. Have you made any friends? Don’t be stupid like your dad or stubborn like your(…)
I know that you are in heaven with God and happier than I can know. You are my friend’s child and I will never forget to honor your memory. I am looking forward to seeing you when I get to heaven! What a glad day that will be!
I’ve never been so torn when making a decision and this was and will always be the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Saying that I didn’t want to do this to you is a complete understatement; it is unfathomable how much it hurt and will forever hurt me. As selfish as this decision may seem,(…)