My beloved Eli. It’s been 19 years and I have not stopped thinking of you or regretting the decision that I choose. I love you so much and can’t wait for the day I finally get to meet you
To my little angels. I am sorry for never really taking the time to sit down and talk to you. You guys would have been turn three and two this coming year, and I am sure your dad and I would have been spoiling you two to no end. There isn’t a day that goes(…)
I never knew I wanted you. I went through the entire pregnancy resenting the life I was carrying… your life. I tried everything to get rid of you and just when I was finally accepting you, I went into labor. You weren’t ready, just 16 weeks in. I rushed to the hospital and ended up(…)
Hi baby, I miss you. I know I didn’t have you for a long time. I’m sorry I couldn’t be the momma you needed. I will carry you for the rest of my life; you will never be forgotten baby bean. I know you’re in heaven baby and your so beautiful. Too beautiful for this(…)
Hello beautiful, I’m so sorry that I couldn’t be the mother that you needed. I wasn’t ready to have you and I didn’t want you to have a less than amazing life so I sent you to heaven. I hope you can forgive me, there is nothing I regret more than not getting to see(…)
My lily. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I didn’t think you deserved the same as your brother. I’m sorry I made this choice. I’m sorry I took this away from you. I loved you very much, and T2. I hurt every day when I look at your older brother and think what could have been. It’s(…)
Hi Love, 103 days have passed since we have been apart from each other. You must be happy playing in heaven right now. Mama misses you so bad. I hope I can hug and kiss you to show how much I love you. I want to have a life with you, but this world is(…)
I think about you every day. Your dad and I weren’t ready to be parents, as selfish as that sounds, we truly weren’t. I was madly in love with your dad, still am to this day, unfortunately I couldn’t make him be a dad when we wasn’t ready. I don’t think anyone can be ready(…)
Hey Mochie… I miss you so dearly. We never got to know your gender but we felt like you were a boy. You were definitely a big eater like mommy and you made me eat soooo much. I’m sorry that mommy and daddy were young and naive, and sorry for always squishing you against cardboard(…)
My dearest Biryani, I will always love you. I have never stopped loving you. My darling, you will always have a place in my heart. May peace, light and love be with you in heaven. May God provide with everything that I couldn’t.
I miss you so much. I know you are in heaven with Jesus and one day we will meet. I was young and stupid. I wish I knew what I know now. Forgive me. I love you so much.
Hi baby. We weren’t sure if you were a boy or a girl. If there was 1, 2 or 3 of you. But I love you. I would have loved to meet you. Your mom wasn’t ready and your dad wasn’t a good man. Your mom thought she was doing the right thing. I love(…)
I was so happy the day I found out you existed inside me. My heart overflowing with joy when I saw you on that screen… I felt like you were my misscarried baby come back to me. The little boy that I always wanted. Your dad was an awful man, had I kept you… you(…)
To my sibling. I was only in the early month’s of being one. I was not a well baby. Born with cancer. My mother decided she could not cope with another baby, so she had a back street abortion. The was some time in 1954. My father was not in agreement and did not go(…)
I don’t know for sure you were a boy, or a girl. I will always feel like you were going to be a son. I can’t regret my decision more. How could I have done that to you? I was so stupid and selfish and thought for sure that you would be better off not(…)