My precious child
My Dearest Child,
It’s been 17 years that I’ve lived in silent pain, regret, anger, shame, guilt and sorrow since I aborted you, my precious, innocent and helpless child, because I was scared and selfish… I was scared of judgement. I was scared to be a single mom. I was scared that I wasn’t able to give you the life you deserved. I was scared and wanted a quick fix, and so, I made that selfish choice that I have regret since. I always wondered if you were a boy or a girl. What would look like? What would be your name? You would have celebrated sweet 16 this year and a sophomore in high school. Can you imagine the life you could’ve had? But I selfishly took that away from you.
I miss you precious baby. I think of you often all these years. I miss you and I wish I could have turned back time, to give you a chance in life. I want to hold you, kiss you and tell you how much I love you. I’m so so sorry for what I have done. Will you forgive me? I pray that our Heavenly Father will take care of you and love you until we meet in heaven. I look forward to meeting you and getting to know you. We will have a joyful reunion. On that day, all the pain, tears, guilt and shame would be removed by our sovereign God. Until then, take care baby. Mommy will think of you often. You will always have a place in my heart and you will never be forgotten.